Do you struggle with body image?
Yes, I do. I have been struggling with it for 3 years now. In 2011 I was diagnosed with Lupus, at the time the only answer to get it under control was to use high doses of Prednisone, which is a steroid. Prednisone makes you extremely hungry and irritable. It also makes your body hold water which causes weight gain. At one point I was taking 120mg every 12 hours. It caused me to gain 75lbs within 6 months. I went from looking like this:
To looking like this
It was quite a drastic change, you can only imagine what it did to me mentally. I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Anxiety. I thought I was the worlds ugliest person. I was ashamed of my body, I didn’t want to have sex or even be naked in front of Sir. I got winded going up stairs it was completely terrible.
Now in the last year, I have lost some of the weight, and I am continuing to lose more. I am off that horrid drug Prednisone. But I am ok in my skin now. Sir makes me feel like I am the most beautiful girl in world and that he wouldn’t want anyone else. I will never be as small as I was and I am ok with that. I just want to be a healthier me.
Do you look around and notice that staggering number of people who may have similar issues?
I really don’t. In my silly head I think that everyone is so comfortable with how they look and I am the only person who has body image issues.
Does you relationship dynamic have specific rules to combat body image insecurities?
No, not as of yet. I think as long as my Sir keeps making me feel like I am beautiful, I will continue to be ok with my body image. If Sir sees that it is getting out of hand I’m sure he will implement something.