And it’s real…

So today, I had my doctors appointment. My doctor took me off from work indefinitely. Next week I will go around to all my specialists and get copies of my medical records to turn into the state retirement board and once they have all the paperwork it will take 6-8 weeks to decide wither or not I’ve been approved for Medical Retirement from Policing. Next Thursday I have my appointment with Social Security Disability, thankfully for that process all I need to do give them a list of my doctors, their addresses and phone numbers. So it’s really happening…it’s really real…and I am just a ball of emotions. One moment I’m relieved, one moment I’m depressed.

It was bittersweet talking to my doctor. He completely agreed that it is time to close the door on being a police officer. My body just isn’t agreeing with it. I’m making my Lupus worse by staying on the force. He said he supports me in any way that he can. He’s an awesome Primary Care doctor, he’s known my husband’s family for over 30 years, so he knows how personally hard this decision was for me. He’s been hinting at medical retirement since I’ve been diagnosed 3 years ago.

Sorry I’m not writing a lot about Kink these days, my mind is just elsewhere right now. I am still getting used to my new role as slave. I am trying to make Sir comfortable when he gets home. Especially now since he is working a lot of overtime to compensate for my income coming down a bit. He is so understanding. I am so lucky to have a Sir like him. He is all about my emotional state right now. He knows how hard this is for me. He sends me texts during the day asking how I’m feeling. He reassures me that this is the best decision for my health. I love him so much. I know there will come a time soon when I am sobbing in his arms about it all and I can fully trust that he will hold me and assure me that everything is going to be alright. I am one lucky slave.

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