So looking through other Blogs I found this website called Submissive Coffee Club (www.sccwriting.tumblr.com). They have cool prompts for blogs, questions that you can answer. So here’s my first writing prompt.
What are your support mechanisms other than your Dominant?
Well I have my 3 of my best friends who know about us changing our lifestyle and are supportive of it. I also read the blogs everyday and the submissives/slaves that I read are great and I feel like I could go to some of them for advice if I have questions. I also find that writing my blog helps me too because the people that follow me give me advice, they have been doing this longer than me so I welcome their advice.
Does it bother you to admit to weakness?
Yes it does. I hate the question in interviews “Tell me some of your strengths and weaknesses…” so I was told instead of telling your weaknesses, tell a strength and make it look like a weakness. For instance, I have OCD, everything has to be perfect. See that might sound like a weakness but its also tells the interviewer that you are organized. So in the end it does bother me to admit weakness. I come from a long line of strong women, who never admit weakness.
Do you think Dominants need someone to turn to in difficult times, other than their submissives?
I do. I am speaking this from our current situation. We are both new to this and I think it would help tremendously for new Dominants to have a mentor or someone they can go to and ask questions. Same is to be said for new submissives as well.
Ok, I will admit it…in the past I have not been one to volunteer to suck Sir’s cock. I don’t know for some reason I am very self-conscious about it. I don’t think I do a good job. However this morning when Sir woke up, he told me to suck his cock (not ask, but told), and that right there made me want to suck his cock so bad.
So I went to work and listening to the sounds he made. The pleasure I was giving him, I wanted to please him more. So I went harder and faster. I felt like “Xena: Sex Goddess” or something. He then did something hes never done before, he put his hands on my head and pushed me down on his cock, taking it all in. It wasn’t too long until he exploded in my mouth and for some reason I don’t know how or why but his cum tasted so good. It was sweet. And I loved the way it felt going down my throat. I was so proud of myself. Sir was proud too. He whispered “Good Girl” to me and assured me I did good. For the first time I felt like I was good at sucking cock. I wanted to do it again but knew we were cut for time.
So now that I know that I can please him this way, I can kick my fears of thinking I don’t do a good job to the curb and just go for it. I had to write about it now, as I couldn’t go back to sleep I was so excited and proud of myself. (and yes Sir gets up at 4:30am for work, lol)
Hey guys, thank goodness its Friday…well it really doesn’t matter for me since I’ve been off work. I think I’ve gone stir crazy being in this house. Our work policy states that if you are on sick time you have to stay in your residence the hours that are supposed to be working unless going to a doctors appointment or going to the pharmacy. So from the hours of 7-3pm I am stuck in my house.
One good thing I had a friend come over and help me get the “Play Room” ready. It was my office, so we moved my office stuff to another room and now its empty and ready for our bed to be delivered. Sir is going to be so happy that we got so much done today. However, I am extremely tired now. I still have to go get my hair done later, ugh!
We went to the grocery last night and I got a really weird feeling, my head started to hurt and I felt like I was going to pass out. But we got through the trip and made it home. Tonight Sir is going to grill out steaks and I am going to make some sides. So it should be a good Friday.
Everyone have a good Friday!!
Ok just because I heard that this woman is making another world tour soon. I saw her “All For You” Tour Live and she is the world’s best performer (only second to Michael of course), I love that she always does one of these numbers in her shows. Just watch them. She’s amazing! The songs are good too!
Love this song…since I am a musical person, it will help with my stress!!!
Ok, this is going to be a long post, sort of vanilla but it ties in to my D/s life. So I am forewarning you, its girly, but its about an important part of my life. My career.
So since we have decided to have a D/s relationship, the plan has always been for me to eventually to leave my career and stay at home so we can really be a 24/7 D/s couple. Actually that has been the plan before we started to get into D/s. As I have mentioned before I have Lupus and I’ve been diagnosed with it for 3 years. Been in my career for 6, so this happened after I started my career. My career is physically demanding and it is starting to weigh on me…literally, my body isn’t able to keep up anymore. Currently I am off work because my liver enzymes are elevated and my GI doctor has ordered some tests to find out the cause.
My workplace is struggling a little bit because they have 3 people on sick leave right now (not really my fault or my worry). However I do understand their frustration but to pick at me and suggest that I am abusing sick time (I have doctor’s note for every time I am absent for work) is just childish and unfair. I’m so tired of all the politics involved with my job. I’m tired of peoples attitudes towards me because I have a chronic illness. Me and Sir think its time for me to throw in the towel. He doesn’t think I need to put up with the stress that they cause because it is not good for my health. I will have to put up with their discrimination and sideways glances for the rest of my career if I decide to stay. I don’t really know if I can deal with this type of stress and keep my Lupus under control. Ok, so easy decision, right???
Wrong….and here’s why. Its pretty much financial but I’ll break it down for ya…For 6 years I’ve paid into our state retirement system. I am unsure if I retire medically (which I am eligible to do) how much of my retirement I would get. I was trying to make it to my 10 year mark that way I would get my full pension if I retired medically. With only 6 years in the system, I don’t know how much I would get. I know I wouldn’t get medical benefits if I medically retired now. I would still be covered under Sir’s work insurance but with me having a chronic illness, I need as much health insurance as I can get. I also have a couple of direct sales businesses that I could put my full energy in those and make extra money that way. I sell Nerium and Thirty-One.
If I medically retire, I would also be eligible to apply for disability. However you have to be out of work when you apply for disability. So we would have to be able to survive for a while on Sir’s salary and whatever I would get from medical retirement. Can we do that now? I’m unsure right now. Sorry I’m getting into a lot of unsure territory here but this is best venue for me to try to clear my head.
I am unsure how a lot of these things work, so this week I will be looking into all that by calling our state retirement systems to see how a medical retirement works, then I will call the social security disability office to know what I need in order to apply for it as well. I will also be talking to my doctor next week about filing for disability obviously he would have to be on board but I know he will be. He’s been very concerned about me working.
The last 24 hours I have been so stressed out thinking about the options. I have a constant headache, but hopefully everything will work out. I will keep you all updated on the progress.
So Sir is getting better at Dominating me, but I am being so impatient. I just want him to get it and do it quickly in the bedroom and outside the bedroom. He’s doing great inside the bedroom. I have never seen this side of him before and I like it a lot. But I have be patient. Which is something I’m not good at. We have a whole new lifestyle to learn and become accustom to. However, I am so impatient which I guess might be a bad quality in a submissive. I just have the yearning and the need to be dominated.
Last night we went to a wedding, a friend from Sirs work. It was a nice wedding, and we got to see some couples that I haven’t seen in a long time. Its been a while since the couples from his work had a dinner out. So the ladies caught up with each other. Sir was very gracious and let me have two alcoholic beverages. I slipped up a couple of times and called him Sir in front of everyone but I don’t think anyone paid any attention to it.
I know that this transition won’t happen overnight, especially for him. But I have seriously got to work on my impatience. I’ve got to understand that he’s got to do his research just like I had to do my research on becoming a submissive. Its going to take time. So while hes adjusting to that, I will definitely work on being patient. Any suggestions on how to do that????
Ok, so today I’m really into my doggies. I had a great training session with them earlier. They are so smart and because they are like my children, I have to brag about them. Presco is an international champion, he’s got his endurance title (AD), His Beginner Novice title (BN), His Rally Novice title (RN), and his Canine Good Citizen title (CGC)… His name officially is Int. CH Hendrix Von Haus Sonnenstrahl CGC AD BN RN…. We are currently working on getting his Novice title. Here’s some pictures of him:
Baby Presco born 9/12/2010. Here he is in Germany with his breeder Balazs Hodos.
Here he is as an adult. My pretty lil German boy!!
At a show in 2013, where he got his Beginner Novice title. So proud of him! We are a good team.
Wearing his CGC title medal….
Here he is laying next to his mommy and with his mommy. This is how we sit in the recliner..lol
Sir had this done for me, its all of Presco’s ribbons from his Beginner Novice title. He got 1st place twice, 2nd place once, and 3rd place once. Theres his certificate from AKC on earning his Beginner Novice title. I hope to do the same with Novice title, he has one leg towards his novice title.
And now for my female, Miss Heidi. Her parents are from Finland but she was born here in the U.S. she may have a terrible bite but she has more heart and love than any Boxer I know. She has her Canine Good Citizen title (CGC), Rally Novice title (RN) and her Beginner Novice title (BN). She was born 5/15/2011.
Getting her Beginner Novice Title!! So proud of her
Lounging. She my Heidi girl. She’s now training in Agility, she has way too much energy for Obedience.
So this is my first Kink Of The Week. This weeks kink is Suits. I personally love a man in a suit. However my Sir doesn’t wear them often but when he does its all I can do to keep my hands off of him. I just think they are sexy and very classy. And this has nothing to do with 50 Shades of Grey or Christian Grey wearing a damn suit. I thought they were sexy waaaaay before him. I don’t really know what else to say about suits. So I guess that’s it for my two cents on the Kink Of The Week.
This is my first time doing something like this but Rye over at “Chasing Me Chasing You” http://www.collaredmom.com gave me the number 15. So I have write 15 Interesting facts about myself. Comment on this and I will give you a number too… So here goes…
- I show my Boxer dogs in Obedience and Confirmation. I’ve taken a break the past year but my boy dog has 5 titles and my girl dog has 4. We love training our dogs my boy does Obedience and Confirmation and my girl does Obedience, Rally and Agility.
- We had my male Boxer shipped over to us from Germany…(at the “low” price of $5000, you too can have a purebred boxer from working lines shipped over from Germany)
- I used to be a dancer (Ballet, Modern, Jazz, Hip-Hop, Ballroom), I have danced for two local Dance Companies and I still am a freelance choreographer. Started when I was 6 years old. Danced for studios and
- I love Horror Movies…Halloween (1978) is my fave although Rob Zombie’s remake was pretty darn good but nothing tops the original. My parents pretty much raised me on horror movies, I didn’t get to watch carebears or smurfs…it was Freddy and Jason, lol.
- I take a lot of medication a day, for Lupus, GERD, Polymyositis, Fibromyalgia, Interstitial Lung Disease, and Scleroderma….yeah that’s a lot but I make it through. Wouldn’t wish any of these diseases on my worst enemy.
- Pink is my favorite color…I’m definitely a girly girl.
- I loved “Sex in the City” the show and the movies.
- I have a huge crush on Dave Franco….James Franco’s little brother.
- I started a local support group for Lupus, that meets monthly.
- I am addicted to Victoria’s Secret (why in God’s name do they keep increasing my limit????)
- I plan on going back to school and getting my master’s degree.
- I sell Nerium and Thirty-One…So if anyone is interested in making a purchase please contact me lol.
- I am addicted to Oreo Cookies….like serious addiction, I can eat one bag in a day.
- I had a huge obsession with the Backstreet Boys and NSYNC, when I was younger…and now, I still listen to their music all the time especially Justin Timberlake.
- I collect Scooby-Doo stuff. I never got to like cartoons as a kid, so when I got older I just fell in love with Scooby Doo so I collect things now.
So there it is, don’t know if they were interesting facts but definitely facts about myself. LOL. Until next time Stay Kinky!!